Your more than just a dream

 

Hi everyone, Holy shit….So I just had a very cool experience!!!
This experience is all about the senses and not using eyesight or in the traditonal physical way that is.
I decided to take a nap and my boyfriend decided to join me. After a few minutes I drifted off to sleep and moments later my awareness was awake and thriving, I was fully aware my body was asleep. I decided to just relax and see what happens without fear. I closed my eyes(internally) if that makes sense and I just tried to feel more around me. I felt a sense of calm and the air around me began to change into a liquid form. Before I knew it I felt the warmth of “thick” water all around my”body”. I opened my internal eyes and could see a light shine on the water that bathed me. I began to move my arms and legs in the same way as one makes snow angels. The more I did this the more the water became thinner and thinner, almost as if I was breaking up the very mass around me, It felt very soothing to me just like a warm bath would. Than I started to feel uneasy I could sense things around and I fear started to take over so I “shook” my body awake, I had a hard time waking myself up at first than my boyfriend moved over and that woke me up for a few moments anyway.
I was not fully awake long enough so I drifted back right to sleep, this time something so truly amazing happened and I’m not joking.
Again I found my awareness sharply acute and aware my body was asleep and my mind was fully alert of everything around me, even my boyfriend sleeping next to me. I thought of my acoustic guitar and internally I watched myself pick it up. Its rather hard to explain, almost as if I never went anywhere at all, I just acquired my guitar from where my physical body was in bed. I kept my eyes closed internally and began to play my guitar, I first strummed the low D chord with my finger tips (which I dont normally use a pic anyways) The sound was a deep humming vibration that seemed to emanate from within me, but it kept going almost as if I had a ton of sound effects added to it, reverb, chorus, delay etc. I got really excited and I felt very safe almost as if my guitar was my protection. I started to just jam on my guitar playing more notes and combining chords, the more I played the more the vibration just engulfed my entire being! It sounded amazing as if a full band was playing right next to my ear. I opened my internal eyes just slightly to see my fingers play the strings, bouncing around sound and the very intense echo that bounced through out of me as the sound got louder and louder so did the vibrations, this is something I have been waiting for all these years being able to do this split of awareness, I was completely in AWE and I felt more alive and powerful than ever.The music was ME it felt like HOME , it was the most amazing feeling, I can’t even began to explain but I’m attempting. 
I was fearless.
I decided to fly…
I took my guitar and turned the neck upright and we both starting flying , first through the ceiling than way beyond that, I kept my internal eyes closed the entire time, I was moving so fast upward it was a bit scary, I could feel the inside of me rush with excitement and fear. It was the most free I have ever felt in my entire life, I knew I had complete control though and as I was shooting upwards so fast and high it began to be too much for me to handle so with my eyes still closed, I yelled “Not so fast, slow down”, Instantly I was at a hault stopped in midair, my guitar still around my soulder,  I knew I was someplace else in the universe, I started to open my eyes and than my boyfriend moved and made a sound…BAM,  I WAS BACK IN REALITY.. but it doesn’t end here, nope, check this out, lol…
My boyfriend was awake and I leaned over to him and said OH MY GOD SOMETHING AMAZING JUST HAPPENED! He looked at me for a minute and said ” You were vibrating”. I said holy shit how did you know?! He said he could just sense it, he thought he was imagining it. He said he wasn’t sure but he felt it and it was like a subtle hum…at this point I was even more thrilled and told him about what just happened to me. He said WOW!,  He is so into what had happened and wants to learn more about it hes watching a show about it and the paralyzed state and beyond heehee.

I can honestly say this experience again backs up my ideas and theories of the mind is everywhere at once, also that your mind is in fact expanding awareness almost like a sponge..you think your leaving the body or going somewhere but the reality is your already there in a sense. This is exactly why Im writing a book on this subject and I hope that this experience will ignite inspiration in all of you, because all of us are capable of this.

You are more than just a dream.

Florence & The Machine- Leave my body

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Meeting my mom in the ” afterlife”

mac_space_by_caurbi-d4sy1kr.pngimg_20151204_150827.jpgI’d like to talk about something I came to realize on my many journeys. Over the years I realized that a part of the dreaming process and it’s  state’s rely mostly on our subconscious, and the subconscious is that which operates as functional(behind the scenes) mean while our waking/ consciousness  stays operable to receive our “aware” daily awareness. In other words we literally pick up multiple subconscious notions on a daily basis without even realizing it, you have to remember we operate a mere percentage of our conscious waking minds.

Basically what it comes down to is your brain acts as a receiver , still the same as in waking life, but  your brain is always receiving information through out the day, whether your awareness is there or not.

With the above in mind I’d like to take you through a story where it seemed both my subconscious and consciousness seemed  to be only in one place,…. my body, the rest was someplace else..someplace I felt as home.

I am used to taking naps and when I do this I am often aware of my intentions, as if I were to induce an out of body experience, However sometimes I just need rest and the strange thing is that it almost ends up to be a preprogrammed thing, where I  will always meet myself somewhere somehow through this process.

I was laying in my bed half asleep or so I thought, I woke up to being  literally aware my body was asleep, but the odd thing was I was not in my body, I was standing on the front  porch of the house I grew up in.

All through out my life I would always go visit my old home while in these states, even after all of us moved away from it. I honestly think the heart will always bring ya back to where you felt a place was truly home.

I was standing on the front porch it was dark out, but for some reason when I know my body is away sleeping, I see a very pretty hazy yellow glow above me, almost as if the street lights are emanating the light but they are not. It’s hard to explain, but it shines from someplace I can’t see where the light end’s or begins.

I’m standing there and I look up to see where the hell this glow is coming from than I see the most amazing picture of the universe in the nights sky above the entire scene. I just thought to myself ” what the hell”?  It was moving in a circle form and I was just standing there in awe. I noticed it was moving in a figure eight form. I just could not believe the beauty of it. I was mesmerized by it all.mac_space_by_caurbi-d4sy1kr

As I was standing there in awe, I got a feeling someone was close by. Then before my eyes was my mother…, she came around the corner and surprised me. I was in shock! She had an army of dogs with her, I mean every kind of dog you could think of she had with her. My mom was a dog trainer and lover and knew everything there was to know about dogs..and horses, but she was  with pup’s of all kinds.

I was in shock and said ‘Mom, what are you doing here”? she starting coming up the steps and said “Ronni what are you doing with your life”? At that moment I realized I was interacting with the other side. I had a feeling I was already but this seemed to prove it for me.  I then looked at my life almost through a gaze, it all came about. I could see myself struggling with myself and alone, I was completely alone and I thought maybe this has to do with another possible part of me I need to work on. I just didn’t get it then, because I was fully aware and I let my subconscious mind take over, telling me its all just images from my imagination…I woke up in my bed and realized it wasn’t just a dream or obe…I met my mom in the afterlife.,

I knew it was her because her energy and I’ve been working with dreams and OBE’s so long that, I recognize some things and that was my mother. I  got lost for about four years where I lost myself, but that is when I had this experience, I know now that it was her.

 

Exiting through a lucid dream

Lately I have been really experiencing the in between states of awake and asleep(hypnagogic state) also known as sleep paralysis  and turning them into out of body experiences. Today I had a very odd experience where I ended up exiting through a lucid dream.( leaving my body) I just remember dying in the dream and I couldn’t believe it, and this is a common thing with me because in a way its a test to see if I am dreaming or awake. The odd thing was that it was really convincing , however when I feel death in dreams I automatically go back to my body to try to “shake” it awake..This is where my awareness almost always shifts every time, however I couldn’t do this for some reason and just let the dreamscape play out. My twin sister was there of course as she is in most if not all my dreams of all kinds, she confirmed that I did in fact die, but somehow I just could not get back to my consciousness to shift it over and wake my body up, I decided to just accept the death and I walked through these doors to find a IMACULATE BEAUTFUL LANDSCAPE I could not believe the beauty I was seeing, the sky was lit up with all types of colors, mostly purple’s that seemed to touch the water that surround it in a way that it was very ALIVE. As I drooled over this amazing scene, I remembered I was so called “dead” and my body in this state felt very strange..and again I could not get back to my physical conscious mind. I wasn’t afraid for some reason, and started to walk down a sidewalk to see what was out there. A man in his late 40’s sat in a old yellow and white striped lounge chair(similar to one I own) As I approached him, he seemed as if he was waiting for me. At this point my awareness was extremely sharp. I was looking at the horizon and I said to him ” This is just gorgeous”! The man than said to me as he stood up to greet me “This is only the beginning of the beauty you will find here”. I looked at him and could see all his features perfectly, he was about as tall as myself 5.6 and had light short curly hair with grey eye’s peering at me through tiny circle glasses. I felt as if I met this man before. I than asked him ” Do I know you”? he seemed surprised and said ” No I don’t think so , I don’t meet many humans here”. This is where I became puzzled and looked really closely at him and thought to myself “what the hell, isn’t he a human”? He seemed to read my thoughts and just smiled and picked up his lounge chair and extended his hand to me to shake mine and as I shook his hand, I said to him ” I know I know you, and I feel we will meet again.” At that moment I couldn’t help but want to fly, so I started to rise into the sky’s beauty only to find myself waking up in my physical bed.

Personal notes-  First off I do not recall the beginning of this experience. I remember I was in some church like building and a few people were there, the one that always stands out for me is my twin sister. I am also unaware of how exactly I died. I just know that since I could not get to my sleeping body I assumed I was indeed dead. My twin sister said I was as well. I think my consciousness was a bit confused and but in these states for some reason I always seem to “know” what is really going on, this enabled me to let the dreamscape play out and let me discover a very unique experience. Once I accepted my death I walked out the front doors in order to see what was out there. As soon as I walked through them my awareness was all on that moment and I could feel my physical body in a slight sense but mostly I felt a sort of half and half, Half my body and the other half where I was. This is where I truly accepted the experience and opened my awareness even more. I still don’t know who this man was I had encountered, however I did feel he was strikingly familiar and I hope I can see him again.

Are we sexually assaulted during the Hypnagogic states?

Hi there..I have been “leaving my body” for many years now and many times I’ve encountered sexual episodes however most of the time I would ” create” these myself out of pure desire for them..and they usually came on after a vivid lucid dream of sex. Honestly I think it triggers OBE’s because it is connected to our senses and of course our physical bodies. I deliberately create these scenes to sharpen my awareness. I don’t think many of the participants were “real”. However I have had a feeling of hands caressing my body in the hypnagogic state. So I think we encounter many sensations in this state that are supposed to help our “exiting” or gaming awareness process. This is only my theory because in the hypna states we are still attached to our physical bodies and also our subconscious seeps through quite often bringing images,sensations etc, because its very difficult to fully control the subconscious, it creates many things that just seem “real”. I can only speak of my own experience of course and this is what I realized over the years:-) hope to at least give more insight into your question. One more thing, I had to pretty much fight through my subconscious attachments to have more clarity and superb awareness in these states..and I think it is safe to say a lot of the things even people were creations of my subconscious mind. It took years to get through some of it even the darker things locked in my sub and the sexual aspect would show up often.