Meeting my mom in the ” afterlife”

mac_space_by_caurbi-d4sy1kr.pngimg_20151204_150827.jpgI’d like to talk about something I came to realize on my many journeys. Over the years I realized that a part of the dreaming process and it’s  state’s rely mostly on our subconscious, and the subconscious is that which operates as functional(behind the scenes) mean while our waking/ consciousness  stays operable to receive our “aware” daily awareness. In other words we literally pick up multiple subconscious notions on a daily basis without even realizing it, you have to remember we operate a mere percentage of our conscious waking minds.

Basically what it comes down to is your brain acts as a receiver , still the same as in waking life, but  your brain is always receiving information through out the day, whether your awareness is there or not.

With the above in mind I’d like to take you through a story where it seemed both my subconscious and consciousness seemed  to be only in one place,…. my body, the rest was someplace else..someplace I felt as home.

I am used to taking naps and when I do this I am often aware of my intentions, as if I were to induce an out of body experience, However sometimes I just need rest and the strange thing is that it almost ends up to be a preprogrammed thing, where I  will always meet myself somewhere somehow through this process.

I was laying in my bed half asleep or so I thought, I woke up to being  literally aware my body was asleep, but the odd thing was I was not in my body, I was standing on the front  porch of the house I grew up in.

All through out my life I would always go visit my old home while in these states, even after all of us moved away from it. I honestly think the heart will always bring ya back to where you felt a place was truly home.

I was standing on the front porch it was dark out, but for some reason when I know my body is away sleeping, I see a very pretty hazy yellow glow above me, almost as if the street lights are emanating the light but they are not. It’s hard to explain, but it shines from someplace I can’t see where the light end’s or begins.

I’m standing there and I look up to see where the hell this glow is coming from than I see the most amazing picture of the universe in the nights sky above the entire scene. I just thought to myself ” what the hell”?  It was moving in a circle form and I was just standing there in awe. I noticed it was moving in a figure eight form. I just could not believe the beauty of it. I was mesmerized by it all.mac_space_by_caurbi-d4sy1kr

As I was standing there in awe, I got a feeling someone was close by. Then before my eyes was my mother…, she came around the corner and surprised me. I was in shock! She had an army of dogs with her, I mean every kind of dog you could think of she had with her. My mom was a dog trainer and lover and knew everything there was to know about dogs..and horses, but she was  with pup’s of all kinds.

I was in shock and said ‘Mom, what are you doing here”? she starting coming up the steps and said “Ronni what are you doing with your life”? At that moment I realized I was interacting with the other side. I had a feeling I was already but this seemed to prove it for me.  I then looked at my life almost through a gaze, it all came about. I could see myself struggling with myself and alone, I was completely alone and I thought maybe this has to do with another possible part of me I need to work on. I just didn’t get it then, because I was fully aware and I let my subconscious mind take over, telling me its all just images from my imagination…I woke up in my bed and realized it wasn’t just a dream or obe…I met my mom in the afterlife.,

I knew it was her because her energy and I’ve been working with dreams and OBE’s so long that, I recognize some things and that was my mother. I  got lost for about four years where I lost myself, but that is when I had this experience, I know now that it was her.



What Happens To a Suicide Bomber On The Other Side | Unarius Wisdom

Ever since the 9/11 atrocities of the World Trade Center bombing I have been wondering what sort of afterlife the perpetrators of such monstrous crimes would

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Soulmates? What are they exactly?

I just want to talk a bit about soul mates and what they are in this lifetime. I think we all go through relationships and are looking for a person to be there always in our lives and after death as well.. Well look no further that person or persons are usually right under your nose.  I think we all had visions and ideas of a perfect person just the same as we really want them to be, but in reality it doesn’t work that way, at least so” they” say.

What is a soul mate? Well no one really knows exactly so we just take the dictionary form and use that since it suits best here.

“A person ideally suited to another as a close friend or romantic partner”.  But does this seem correct? I think it does and it doesn’t.

Since no one really knows exactly what a soul mate is , how bout we start off with some simple observations or questions rather.

First off lets start with the obvious who has been there all your life and will always be there for you no matter what hardship you are facing? Your parents right? Well yes they are some, but what if your parents aren’t so much there for you? Well I think they are still “soul mates” because you both are learning from the situation, whether you chose to do something else from that experience is up to you. But initially it all comes down to who we are and our own personal evolution and choices.

I think from my observations and experience in life, we have many soul fact as many as we wish or need. I’d like to bring up something funny that my twin sister still makes fun of me about.
Over the years I had a few relationships and also had said my partners were my soulmates. Since I’ve grown older I realize not all of them were soulmates, maybe a couple. Haha.

Basically I believe those that are/ have major roles in our lives have the possibility to be a soulmate because like I said, both are learning from each other and not in a short term basis or a temporary way.

These people usually are born into our lives or we are born into theirs. What I mean by this is that most of the time I have found our own siblings to be “a”soulmate. I think its interesting to note that my twin sister has been a challenge as well as a prize through out my life. Also she is in most if not 99.9% of my dreams. I truly believe she is a soulmate of mine.

But let’s get back to what they really are. At a point in my life I thought everyone that entered my life were soulmates. Obviously this isn’t reasonable or rational, but is it? I mean its safe to say everyone that entered my life worthy of any kind of value as a person always has something to show or teach me as well as I  was for them. This is the true soul mate rather than some person you meet on the street that in only in your life a mere year or two.., Don’t get me wrong these people have their place in our lives as well but not as soul mates sorry.

So, lets go back to where we started with the original question. What is a soul mate?  Well I think we all need to find that out for our selves and our own unique journeys in this lifetime. I’m just giving my personal perspective here that basically they are the people who dive into your life with you and learn as you do, almost on the same level, this is why  some people seem to be only  are apart of our lives but always come back. I think its because their mission is not finished without us. I say mission because we all are on many here but some are more easily done in groups. This brings me to my point of it all, and takes this to the next thought in mind.

I know it may not be easy to grasp an after life let alone this life. I understand how people get lost easily because there is no real proof of one or the other here.  But what one considers truth and validation  is very loosely given and received as “proof”.

I’m just gonna give ya my logic of it all and hopefully it makes sense to ya’ll. but if not its cool too.

What I have gathered over the years is that soul mates are in fact the very people who surround you the first time you got to see this life and than some. They are the people who see you as you are as they did as day 1 and can help you  on your journey,  not all of us get so lucky though because most of our soul mates struggle on their own paths. However if you were meant to help them than you were, but remember you can’t save NO ONE, this life is still your own personal journey here and  those that you love or they love you is a bonus here.

A soul mate will be with you in this life till the next, no exceptions , no questions. They are the ones you will least expect to be a soul mate.


Who is foolin who?


When I see this picture I react in either hate or acceptance, however I’d like to explain a few observations and ask a few questions I also get from it.  I’ve seen to a few degrees that  this statement is very true, however it is for those usually dependent on someone/thing else usually ex drug addicts. no offence to them by the way,  and I’ve seen the same reliance upon religion, Its something some people need because they have been through so much turmoil, it is the very last hope in order to care about themselves. I really think that religion is hit or miss, it can help or hurt..its ultimately up to the person and how they incorporate it in relation to themselves. Hate to say it but people need something more than themselves and I think it is a very delicate subject because we all feel helpless sometimes but  interestingly it shows just how messed up we all are or should I say rather how much bullshit we all encounter in our lives. I think a lot of people also need to feel a part of a group, who wants to feel alone all the time? This statement says a realization that no one is right or wrong because once again I’m going to call something out on theists and atheists. They are one in the same, they both choose to either beleive or disbeleive for usually the same reasons, turmoil, tragedy or a life full of hardship. I obviously can’t speak for everyone however I have met too many people that define the above. Also another point I must point out is they both don’t have to take responsibility for their actions one can simply say ” god made this happen for a reason”, while the other says” oh well I have no one to answer to except myself”.  Both are not taking accountability for the other half of moral here.. I think this is the ultimate underlying disagreement between the two  but ironicly they are based around the same core and end up to be very relative. So before you judge the other,  question whether or not the basis is the same. This is only my opinion on the war of atheism vs theism. I myself  can relate with both.

The Garden

By a house a man walked, It stood empty, so the garden he than  stalked – Ronni Windhorst

This poem is taken from some of my very first writings and published work years ago. I hope you all enjoy and understand what I’m portraying here and mostly use your imagination and see what is in the garden. 🙂 please feel free to elaborate on what you find in the garden.

Why do we live in a world of hate?

1424036032520I think this is a very good question for today and yesterday as well as tomorrow. But I think the answer is nor hear nor there because it is something we have included in our own evolutionary tactics. It’s like the light  without the darkness, we will always stumble on such ways to remove this impossible pose from the intense spectrum of life but will never be able to because it is after all a part of the whole spectrum.

The reason I am writing about this is because I came across this question in one of my google + groups I found interesting and I think it’s a unique question to ask everyone as well. I would like to conclude my responses from the group below,

“I read a book years ago, the author basically described that technology would collapse the human race and upon us as well, eventually we will not be able to keep up and will be forced to revert back, unpiecing the very machine we created in order to get to the core again. It’s a very interesting ritual humans have always done over time. I think it’s a necessary process because without developing this we would have nothing to evolve to”.

“I think its a very accepting or a non accepting time but it has always been this way. On a personal number I hate to say this but its true that you have to cut ties with those that are blindly driven by toxicity and do more harm than good here, even if its a close family member. Its really hard but gotta do it sometimes, very sad too.. I know from experience. I just wish it didn’t have to be that way, its very heartbreaking to have to do.But it always goes back to my lil saying ” life is the journey to oneself”.
Its hard to trust these days and I don’t have any children but I feel for all that do. I can’t imagine trying to raise someone today or even in the 40’s really. Things are the same but with a complicated twist. Technology just makes it easier for us to express ourselves whether good or bad…so it seems there is more hate today but realistically it’s just a matter of being able to express through multiple outlets creating a seemingly more hate revenue”.

Any opinions comments please feel free to leave them as well as share and get others insights into this subject, Thanks.

Karma and how it works

A Story about karma-,  I want to talk a bit about karma and how it works..for me anyway..I was married years ago, but it was starting to loose its flavor for us both, at the time I was young and naïve but also very aware of my heart and what it wanted. I was very close to my Tarot Teacher at the time and I told her I felt a younger man coming into my life very soon, and the closer time came, the moment came as well, and I met him. He was in fact younger than me, but he held a special key to a part of my heart so I ran with it. I told my husband of this new man in my life and he appreciated my honesty and in the same he told me his thoughts on our marriage. We were on a even keel. I was grateful. So the lesson I”m showing here is by honesty it really evades karma in a sense because Karma is something you create by being dishonest or by not finishing what you started, that’s all it is..and when ya realize this, you can lift those heavy boulders from your shoulders and touch life again in a way ya didn’t before. In my experience, I was married but I was honest with all involved and not only did my husband help me get my own place , but he came over to see it and hang out: for a bit:) and no bad karma followed me or was created because we did not create it in the first place. So in a sense Karma is also a mental concept we create out of fear, fear of facing what we need to face…but if we do not face things it will follow us. Like a bad dream that reoccurs , Karma is the very basis of who we are and what we wish to create and un create here. But remember this, love wipes out everything even Karma. So If ya need help with anything, just ask…I’m an excellent adviser and would love to help anyone out:)